ok, i came up with this idea from jordie's singles thread.

what is the one person who you dated that you would give anything ( or alot anyway) to have back? or one friend?

*dripping with nostalgia*

mine would be this guy i dated for a month around may. he was just so sweet and had that ruggedness and sense of humor i love. he wasn't the most handsome guy, but i saw him as one of the most attractive guys i knew.

my one friend would be this girl Jill i was friends with in high school. she was so crazy but we had so much fun. we would put on movies and act out scenes and eat tons of chips and junk food and have sleepovers. i miss her out of all my friends the most.
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Oh, nice one. A nostalgia thread. We need more of these.

Well, the people I want back are people I never had in the first place. There was something special between me and one girl a while back, but we never acted on it. Now I don't speak to her and frankly I don't want to, because the reality will destroy the memory. But it's nice thinking of the times when we would lie on my bed, and I would have my head on her shoulder, and I would look up to her face waiting for the kiss that never came, but it was okay that it never came, because it would never live up to the way I had imagined it.

There was another girl.. I don't know, we're past that now, but sometimes I wonder what it would have been like if we'd stayed together rather than all these other things happening instead.

The guy, though... nah, I would rather eat my own eyeballs than get back with him. At least then I'd be blind, so I wouldn't have to look at him. :p But no, not after he treated me. It would be the ultimate disrespect to myself to let him do that to me again.

Jordie
xxxx
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does this just apply for relationships? because i miss my best friend.

i loved her to pieces, and then i get an email saying how i deserve to be in a hospital coz i'm fucked up..and a lot more i wont go into

she was under the impression i pushed her away, and hated her

when really i was trying to hard to reach out to her

i dont talk about my problems, no1 knows hardly anything about me and my parents know the least, near enough nothing.

she's moving away now, so i wont see her

doesnt make much of a change seeing as she started moving away from me, and onto another girl about a year ago..slowly shutting me out, getting a new best friend, turning around and accusing me of pushing her away


sorry, random ranting x
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aww, i'm sorry seeing stars, it's happened to me too. i can't count on one hand how many friends i've lost whether it's because we grew apart or grew up. and some of them i miss terribly. just wanted to let you know you're not alone:)
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Emily

It's weird because we were never right for each other, and by trying to stick through it we went through more pain then we probably should have.

Even so...I miss her. If anything i'd like to have her as a friend. I think on a friend basis we would have been great.

Though I know that won't ever happen.
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Originally posted by lucienne9
aww, i'm sorry seeing stars, it's happened to me too. i can't count on one hand how many friends i've lost whether it's because we grew apart or grew up. and some of them i miss terribly. just wanted to let you know you're not alone:)

*hugs* and thanks x
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Jalbrean I LOVE your sig....dang that is very kool!!!!

ok ummm right now if I could have anyone back in my life it would be the girl who passed away on me while i was at college.....she was my first love and a great friend...I just remember her giving me a card and inside the card was her class ring. I asked her why she was giving it to me...she said she just wanted me to have it and she was sorry for the past...I feel she has been with me ever since she has passed away and is watching over me. I haven't been back to see her grave though I think about it everytime I go home, I just think that if I saw it I would never want to leave there again, but I know she just wants me to be happy so I don't go there....I just make sure she is taken care of. I just wish I could have been there in her final moments.

I just want to end by saying I love you Mariah...and i Know I didn't spell your name right cause you knew I never did :)

Kamiken
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Thanks i'm rather fond of this sig. :)
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G.
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Originally posted by Jalbrean
Thanks i'm rather fond of this sig. :)

boooootifal
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Brian.
and Karen.
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I miss one of my good friends who moved to New Brunswick (another province) 2 years ago. She has a new life there, a new job, a new boyfriend... it's been months since we last talked on the phone. I visited her last year, but it takes 14 hours to go there by train, so I don't know when's the next time I'll be able to go.

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Caroline
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My ol' high school girlfriend, and my dad.
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i'd give anything to see paul again...

and as far as friends go....lili, stacy, brandon, and brian....
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I would have gotten over Richard .
He was so fun to be with but he was menatally ill and it kept getting worse until finally he shot himself .
Then more recently the relationship was too good to be true with another man and he wants to remain friends, but if he has another girlfriend , I am jealous over her .
I did gain a friend though .
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Howie left a year ago, and I still miss him like crazy. He's the one I loved, but he didn't love me. Well, he loved me, but not like I loved him. I.E. I wanted to have his babies, and he saw me as someone he had to save.... At least for a little while... Then he went up to LA to be with his boyfriend, and I've hardly heard from him all year. *sigh*Oh well. It's probaly good that he's gone. Everyone was right. I was too attached.

~saturn
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Scott, a straight boy I was absoulutley head over heels in love with about four years ago.
We were so good in all the ways that matered, expect the one main one. If I could change anything i'd have him back, and have him all to myself.
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Brian. My dear Commando-Boy. We just broke up today :a What a way to start the new year, eh?
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it was a friend. my middle school best friend, I wasn't her best friend, but man, it was the closest thing to a good close friendship I had ever had, up to that point (even if I do have a better friendship with someone now...they're thousands of miles away. and this friendship I had in middle school was the best friendship I've had HERE).

I miss her terribly. we were opposites in most things, but still so so so close.
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Theresa Decapio and i had so much fun in 8th grde, and then she ran away to her mom' s and then back to her dads, then got marries and dissappeared .

We partied with her aunt and uncle once and it was the best party I every went to .

To be young and be so vibrant !
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I don't know.... Maybe things are better how they are? Kevin, of course! He died when I was 18. Wow - 8 years... My 2 grandfathers. But maybe they're health would've got worse? I dont know... :b
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She got married when she turned 18 to get out of the house, and her father was the mayor so I couldn' t really get away with hanging out with her because I was on probation and her brother had run away first to
their mom' s and then I helped Theresa run away to her mom' s . My mother and I actually gave her a ride to her mom' s. After that we couldn' t see each other any more . If he hadn' t been mayor ...
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Hmmmm not anyone that I have dated, I havent dated enough people! :)

But there are friends I have broken away from in the past that I wish I hadnt.

I did such a horrible thing to a friend at school once which I feel guilty for everyday. She was being really hypocritical with regards to a number of things, I thought she was using me for my money.

I wrote her a letter saying I didnt want to be friends with her.

Late that night around 11pm her father and her turned up at my door step, I was accused for being a bully towards her. My legs were like jelly. I think I cried for about a day over that. I still see her dad about and he makes me literally ill, I am sent right back there, legs shaking, head spinning, so so scared of what he could do. he used to hit my friend, I was so scared he would do this to me.

I guess I wish I never this did and I still had alexis as a friend rather than feel guilty over it.

Cinders xxxxxxxxxx
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...My husband. He left me on Friday. I can't even begin to know what my life will be like without him
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I haven`t dated anyone, but if friends count; my best friend. She died when she was 16. Four years ago this summer. I miss her so much! She exist in my dreams, and I`ve dreamed a lt lately about her. I still can`t believe she`s gone. I wish she had survived, but no, the cancer stole her life.
I MISS YOU MARIT...:a
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I' m sorry about your friend . My uncle died of cancer about the same time your friend did .
We still miss him too . With cancer it' s hard to accept . My aunt died of cancer too .
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this thread is soo sad. mad props to you all for sharing.

I cannot really mention here who i'd most want back. I always push people away and then end up regretting it dreadfully, however this was a case of outright regection on the other person's part so it smacks more than anything.

xxjeni
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No one
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If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
You'd take back those words that hurt me
And I'd stay...

I would have to say Corey Priest. We were excellent buds in highschool and then he turned into a mammoth asshole because he became very popular. I have never met anyone as goofy and compatible with me since. I still miss him, at least when I think about the really good times we had. It upsets me that some crappy teenage hormones and insecurities destroyed our relationship. I still remember his b-day too...October 1st :a I miss you sweety. :f
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Originally posted by goatfaery
...My husband. He left me on Friday. I can't even begin to know what my life will be like without him

I'm sorry to hear this. I hope things will work out for the best for you in the long run.
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My closest friend Kathryn-I guess we knew each other too well, I can't imagine ever getting so close to anyone ever again even in a relationship. We were true soulmates and my soul aches every day we've lost touch.

Big hugs to everyone-at least we have this forum so we can support each other :):):):):)
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My first real love.
I was 18 and he was 24- he was the TA for my Philosophy 101 class.
We only dated for a month (if you can even call it that). He dumped me and wanted to remain my friend.
But I was too crushed. So instead I crank-called him a lot and walked past his house listening to the Velvet Undergroud on my Walkman.

I often wonder if we would be friends today if I hadn't been such a loon at the time.
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My first real love.
I was 18 and he was 24- he was the TA for my Philosophy 101 class.
We only dated for a month (if you can even call it that). He dumped me and wanted to remain my friend.
But I was too crushed. So instead I crank-called him a lot and walked past his house listening to the Velvet Undergroud on my Walkman.

I often wonder if we would be friends today if I hadn't been such a loon at the time.

you were hurt. your behaviour was more than normal in this case.

[hugs]

i'd love to see an ex-friend of mine one more time. but he hurt me so bad last year. my best decision ever: getting away from him. he still has a place in my heart, though.
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i miss my bestfriend meghan. she moved to NY and i only get to see her every so often. she is a piece of me and taught me so many life lessons even though she never thought i was listening. she's been my strength and courage through so many hard times in my life.

i also wish i could get back matt. i guess i screwed things up between us, but i just think he was looking for a reason to leave. i think we were so much alike it would never had worked, but i still miss our talks and the sound of him laughing. [post14]

-jessica
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My ex-boyfriend of less than 24 hours.

My best friend who lived up north and I haven't seen in a while so she can help me out dealing with my ex.
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Only One Person???
Well, mine would be either April or Amber...Two amazing women. I miss them so, so much. They absolutely, mean the world to me...
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Hmm, the one friend I want back would be Jayne from high school. I would go over to her house every weekend to escape my crazy life with my mom, and she would always be there with open arms. But then, things just got tough, and we had a falling out. I haven't seen her for 5 years.

The one boyfriend, if I can even call him that, would be Tim, my most recent ex. Hmm. To make a very long story very short, he was my tutor in high school, and I recently ran into him again. We started seeing each other , but then it ended. Badly. I guess, in the words of Ani Difranco, "I just want you to live up to the image of you I create." It would have been so much better if we had just stayed friends. I miss him as a friend, very much, but he was an awful boyfriend. You know what I mean? :(

~saturn
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Saturn- I know exactly what you mean.

I think the hardest part about a relationship ending is losing the friendship.
I hope you're doing ok. [hugs]

I actually had my best friend from high school come back into my life a couple years ago.
We hadn't seen each other in 8 or 9 years (also a falling out situation). We bumped into each other at the grocery store.
And as glad as I was to be reunited with her, I discovered we had grown to be very different people. We didn't share anything in common anymore. So even after finding her, we just drifted apart again.
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Saturn- I know exactly what you mean.

I think the hardest part about a relationship ending is losing the friendship.
I hope you're doing ok. [hugs]

I actually had my best friend from high school come back into my life a couple years ago.
We hadn't seen each other in 8 or 9 years (also a falling out situation). We bumped into each other at the grocery store.
And as glad as I was to be reunited with her, I discovered we had grown to be very different people. We didn't share anything in common anymore. So even after finding her, we just drifted apart again.

Thank you so much, Red Ribbons for your kind words. I've just been tearing myself up over Tim, and it's been almost three weeks since we stopped seeing each other. It has been so difficult. :( But it helps a lot when someone understands.

~saturn [hugs] (Lisa)
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I would like to be friends with my Ex - jason again. I wouldn't necessarily want to be with him again (although it would be nice) but i just wish i could talk with him and have everything cool between us. He can't even aknowledge my presence anymore.... and i see him a lot

plus i'm always too scared to say something either...oh well...maybe next time i see him i will
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Well there is only one person that I want back in my life, my best friend Annie. But she's really not gone. She's just living across the country and our sources of communication are limited. But she will be moving back in 10 months. So if I can be patient, tough, and brave till she gets back I should be fine.

I just really miss her, you know? She the only person that I can really talk to and it's hard not having her around when I need her so much. :(
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My first (and I think my last) love Ben. I'd change it all if I could to be with him. He's probably the only person in my life that I've ever really cared about and he's the only person who has really ever cared for me.
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My first (and I think my last) love Ben. I'd change it all if I could to be with him. He's probably the only person in my life that I've ever really cared about and he's the only person who has really ever cared for me.

[hugs] to you my dear. There must be others that care for you, honey. Also, I know it may seem like Ben will be your last love, (Howie may just be mine, but that's another story) we have to at least hope that love is still possible for us, right?

Another [hugs] for good measure, and a green dot too.

~saturn
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[hugs] to you my dear. There must be others that care for you, honey. Also, I know it may seem like Ben will be your last love, (Howie may just be mine, but that's another story) we have to at least hope that love is still possible for us, right?

Another [hugs] for good measure, and a green dot too.

~saturn


Aww. Sorry I didn't reply to this earlier I just saw it. I guess I do have to maintain hope for something better. Otherwise life is just meaningless. Thank you for your kind words, sweetie, it means a lot. [hugs]
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I'm glad that I could help, in some small way. :)

~saturn
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